...self...

Do I like the person I've become?

~26-05-16~

Some pondering being done

Who are my friends?

Unconditional love is so powerful

Why am I such a bad student?

Seriously, why, I can do some much better

Am I really happy?

Or have I been lying to myself, or so convinced that I am a naturally wired happy person, no, I am. But am I now

{Transfer?}

Where to, what, really? Love Montreal, love McGill?

UQ?

Travelling?

Catfish and Mandala--- heavy read at times, grime travels

Make a plan, which countries to hit: Australia 200%-- is that even a question, NZ 110% yes, England 100% yes, France? (summer/winter?), Tasmania 90% yes, Indonesia/Bali 80% and it goes on (Malaysia, Japan, India, Greece, Turkey, Budapest, Russia, Spain, Portugal, Brazil) 

Why is Africa not on my list?

Confession: monumentally lazy and lost

loss of interest
loss of momentum
loss of work ethic
loss of road trip
loss of grades

gain of self reflection
gain of acceptance
gain of understanding
gain of friendship
gain of happiness

goal of today: to get to Australia

goal of life: ...to be continued

#halfandhalf

~you know that time where you mention something, undecided whether you really want to explain or share what you have to say- but you say it anyways and then regret it a moment later- and then the other person continuously asks you what it was and you keep repeating sorry I shouldn't have said anything and it just keeps happening~

Yeah, you know that time.

why?

(I just want to keep it to myself, just a little longer :)

How does one think anymore?

Today I had a revelation.
I'm not as smart as I thought I was. I've become lazy, mentally.

People will 100% deny this~ once again say I'm putting myself down. But the truth is, deep inside, I've always thought that I'm smart/ intelligent/ motivated, whatever you want to call it.

But today, I realized, I don't think anymore.
      ~~~~Thinking, problem solving, logic!

I have forgotten how to think.

It's something to exercise, stretch, use.

It's something I've lost in University.
University, where information is hurled at you in every direction and dimension.
"Fake it until you make it" rings loud and clear in my position at the moment.

My brain hurts and it's time to sleep.
I have a midterm tomorrow.

...How does one do this thing called thinking?